lovelies...

1)had lunch w mom today
2) went to gym; saw UNCLE! was a nice surprise. chatted briefly. i dont know why but i kinda liked his father figure thingy. i had a father but not one whom i felt loved me terribly; rather, it was always a distant figure, cold and faroff. somehow, it was nice to feel as if i was being loved by an older man; a father figure. saw oli pettigrew. oh god, i dnt wnat to go there.
3) went to holland v and found a nice spot in the middle of ya kun. great. asked the ladies if it was taken. it WASNT!
4)went to starbux and it was QUIET - great. charged my laptop; then went to have dinner. felt better liao.
5) wentback to yakun and did bit of work. was quite good and did quite a good bit today. i am glad!

this is a fruitful day!

on other thoughts:

been wondering about whether how i should let go my anger/fear/disappointment/love/sadness, etc. i dunno how to 'process' it other than wishing bad things onto another person. it's bad, not good. i dont want to. my light side tells me it's wrong. really. what should i do? i dont know...

i want to express it; let it go. it's about time. i dont want to see it again. but somehow, coming back to sg, makes me see it again i just feel that it all rush back in a tide.

i dun even know what i'm writing about anymore.

all i can say is that i fucking hate all of you fucks -
1) deborah maak - just a fucking bitch
2) wee teck - fucking paedophile
3) marc almgro - fucking loser who might just die alone someday in an oldfolks home - this is NOT a curse.
4) pramila kaur - hypocritical cunt who can't keep her leg shut to a stranger-desperado
5) jacinta ho - hypocritical bitch; the reason why many people won't go to church
6) denis pua - u fucking idiot who can't keep your cock in ur pants
7) teo boonpin - u fucking faggot; i wonder how u managed to use your dick on jacinta a bush in the garden
8) ong sohchin - u fucking idiot who cant spell, fuck you fuck you fuck you - i wnder how u got to where you were - u're too damn ugly to be fuckable i just wonder why; btu then, many str8 men just have a dick that can't think or discern so it's just all about a hole, isnt it?
9) bee ong - fucking act-posh bitch turned yoga instructor - u look like a clamped up cunt, i.e a tight mussel
10) alfian - u fucking cockhead snob - look at how intelectual you are now; that's y u can't even be a relief teacher cos the entire govt knows you are a FUCKING MUSLIM FAGGOT wth a hole dying to be plugged
11) CYRIL w - u fucking poet who writes so many autobiographical poems that i just think you're pure rubbish - btw, if u're reading this, i showed one of my profs your poems and he rubbished it, saying it was 'cliche' beyond belief
12) THE MOTHRFUCKERS AT SILVERFISH WRITING - fuck you! if i ever win a booker prize, u can forget about the interview i'll give. not that i am dying to but i guess u bunch of fuckheads are just pathetic losers who reallly believe that you are the bloomsbury gang in...er....MALAYFUCKINGSIA.
13) sharon bakar - F U C K Y O U - and go home! :) peace...


ok, i'll continue tomorrow